It was supposed to be a routine surgery. A fine needle biopsy on this mysterious lump on my neck showed it as being benign. However, my doctor recommended removing it because who wants to have a visible bump on their neck if they don't need to?
So one day, I went to the medical clinic, changed into a gown, counted down from 100 (probably made it to 93 or something), and fell asleep.
As I groggily woke up, I distinctly remember a "sticky" feeling at my neck where the surgery took place.
As I came to my senses, I realized:
I have a freaking tube sticking out of my neck! What the heck?!
For the next two weeks, I had my friend "Kyle" accompany me everywhere.
Kyle was a collector of chyle, a kinda runny sour cream'y fluid that is composed of fat and lymph juices, from the chyle leak the surgeon created when they removed my lymph node.
I had to purchase some shirts just for Kyle so I could stuff him in a front pocket.
He was pretty gross. I had to dump that junk down the toilet pretty often.
This surgery allowed my medical team to do a pathology report on the lymph node they removed.
It turns out that lymph node wasn't so benign after all.
I'm about to hit my four-year cancerversary. Many people celebrate their cancerversaries in different ways. I choose to celebrate mine when I heard from my oncologist that I no longer have any evidence of disease.
Some mornings, I wake up and feel that same stickiness that I felt when I woke up from surgery that one day. It used to panic me significantly.
Nowadays, it makes me remember Kyle and the time we shared. I still have some panic moments, but they aren't as bad as they used to be.
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