03/27/2019 By Rachel Mihalko
Lucky is not a word I would use
To describe what I have been through
But perhaps I could change my perspective
And try to see things
Another way
I have grown
And matured
And become more myself
I have learned
That things are not always
What they look like
For I never really looked
Sick.
I have gotten closer
To others
Who have suffered
And I have seen the beauty
That comes
From pain.
Everyone around me
I seem to count as lucky
But why
Can’t I see that for me?
I have survived so much
But I still cannot see
How surviving
Counts me lucky
Because
Did I really deserve
To go through this
At all?
So one day I might be able
to count myself lucky.
But today is not yet
That day.
Rachel Mihalko is the Director of Content at Elephants & Tea magazine and is a Hodgkin’s lymphoma survivor. She loves theatre, writing poetry, and crafting of all sorts. Reading has fueled her passion for writing, and you will rarely find her without a book on hand. You can connect with her on Instagram.